Amsterdam

A bad english speaker, decided to cross the Atlantic ocean trying to forget all her present and past, in the beginning she was doing really well and quick, she find in her loneliness the real meaning of life. every time he comes again to her life, she lost everything, she really want to know a logical explanation  about why she act so wrong, until the point to lose even her dignity.

but not everything is so bad here.

Everyday in this city that girl was a new person, specially when she was ensure that he will never get back again, she were always available to work hard, to be disciplined, to be perfect when she never had been before. all In the beginning, everything was amazing and wonderful, but with the pass of the time, i lost interest and a real me wanted to appear.

No, i promise to don't talk about this situation again, this is a brief part of a life i want to erase forever so lets talk about what i learned.

I arrived to Amsterdam City in august 18th of 2017, the fact to come here really changed my life forever, and it happens because i am an open notebook, where everyone is able to write something, i never imagined that my experience here as an aupair "babysitter, nanny, whatever" let me see the life in this rich way, i learned here to be different in short time, first I accepted the disaster of person i am, and love it, i learned to be simple, but happy  doing the basic; two simple little humans taught me to be stronger,  because their little bodies where so small to support the pain of life, also i learned to be direct, cold as ice, aggressive if i really want something and tolerant with things i really don't feel comfortable, because i could make feel others more uncomfortable with me.

What i will bring with me when i get back to Bogota City, is easy; Knowledge about life, a lot of souvenirs, cheese and a broken heart i will miss my dear Marco.